For All The Right Reasons by Brownell Rachael

Author:Brownell, Rachael
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Rachael Brownell Books
Published: 2020-05-16T16:00:00+00:00

"Jade," I hear Nathan call. I'm staring at the little stick in my hands. Wanting to scream. To cry. To feel something, anything, other than disbelief.

"Babe! Where are you?" he asks, his voice closer than it was before.

Opening my makeup drawer, I shove the test in a bag and into the back of the drawer. I hear his footsteps getting closer, so I put a dollop of paste on my toothbrush and shove it in my mouth. I need to brush again anyway. I've puked at least three times since getting home.

I was hoping it was just nerves. Anxiety. A debilitating illness I didn't know I had.

No such luck.

The door opens seconds later, and my amazing, perfect, handsome boyfriend is smiling at me.

"There you are. Almost ready for dinner?"

The thought of food causes my stomach to turn, and I have to swallow the lump in my throat. My toothpaste goes with it, causing me to gag.

"Five minutes," I say through a forced smile.

This is bad, and I can only see it getting worse.

Things between Nathan and I have been somewhat strained since we came back from our little excursion to the island to fix Gabby and Quinn's relationship. Why? For starters, we’re living together now. That wasn’t the easiest transition. Then there’s the fact I still haven't been able to tell him I love him. I have no idea why. I know exactly how I feel about him. I try to show him as often as I can, but the words won't come.

And every time he says it to me, it makes me feel like shit.

We've tried everything to alleviate the mounting tension. We took a weekend trip just the two of us. We have date night twice a week, like tonight, even though we've been living together for almost two months. Hell, we even tried having sex multiple times a day, but it just started to feel forced. Like it was a chore. So then we went the opposite route and stopped having sex altogether.

Nothing is helping. Anytime we take two steps forward, we take four back. It's like we're preventing ourselves from making progress, and I'm starting to wonder if part of the problem has been me lately. I've been... emotional. Edgy. Easily set off. One minute things will be fine, and the next I'm upset with him for the stupidest shit.

Even I know it's stupid, yet I can't help but get pissed.

I've never lived with a man before, but I assumed that was part of the problem. This was all new to both of us. Moving in together was a big step. One I don't think we really thought through at the time. It was about saving money, combining our finances so neither of us was struggling. Getting him out of student housing since college was over.

We were adults now. We were trying to do make adult decisions.

But we weren’t thinking things through like adults.

We've made a shit ton of mistakes since we've started dating. Poor decisions. Lied to our friends and families.

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